athletics

wanna go for athletics

i do lots sports
but only do what i can do well

i do sports
but actually i can't do any well

the best one is running

i wanna go for athletics in school
but don't know anyone is going

afraid i think
afraid to fail
i always like that

im now feeling so fuck coz of my auntie and uncle
they are crap

fuck ˊˋ

stupid thought

something wrong recently
just feel like that

someone told me she's gonna back to thai
the reason is she don't like here

i don't really mind
i tell myself like that

but i know it's actually effecting me

feeling some thing's going on the wrong track
nothing is in my mind

u told me don't forget the smile u taught me
i won't
i just dunno how to smile when i am really sad

i know how to smile when seeing u
but not by myself

i know i fell a bit afraid
i am alone
here
or maybe not just a bit

sorry
really

something wrong

there's something...

feeling like going back to taiwan right now
not because i don't like carey
not because i hate this home

there's something wrong
i said
but can't figure why

i really really wanna go home

tomorrow is ur birthdy
i wanna
back to stella
but
can't

still got vis com exam tomorrow
and business studies next week
already failed most of the exams
i know
im making everybody disappointed

basketball this saturday
what should i do
i should go
but have no confident to play

again

why to be alive
it's just useless

something's wrong
but i should be happy
ur birthday's coming

afraid
i'll cry
again

when's last time i cried?
can't remember
maybe long time ago

always

normal?

i am not
normal?

just need a space

everything's going wrong way...

do u know?

"there's sort of sadness behind every smile"

--- but nobody can ever understand





i hates my auntie
be honest
this is not a place called home
instead
it's named jail

i love the school
but i hate to go home
i love Australia
but not this home

i screwed up the science competition this morning
got no more confidence

esl today
the essay
i though i know what can i write
but i still have no idea 'how' can i write it down
damn

my english's crap
that's it





but it's truth
at least to me

"there's sort of sadness behind a smile"

i never know

i never know
the truth


i have give u all my love
but
i never know
wheather u have forsake me or not
i have no idea at all

i hope
im not just escaping

i hope
it's not the truth at all

changes

something has been changed
totally
i don't know why
how can it be like that?

i never understand
you know why