loving camp

Everything all looks familiar
But it seems I am not used to it

Seriously I miss camping
Seriously I would rather stay there but not this home

The shopping first day
The kayaking practice of 2nd day
Sailing on 3rd day
The koala hunting of 4th day
Departure of expo of 5th day
Sleeping under stars on 6th day
Walking in the sea of 7th day
Deep breath of 8th day

8 days without PSP, Internet, MSN, iPod and more things
Camping, not only means I can stay away from the annoying auntie
But also it’s the thing I love

It’s the first time I had ever shopping in Safeway for over a thousand dollars
It’s the first time I had ever shopping in Safeway like robbery

The 2nd day’s practice doesn’t seems that wonderful
Because I got a teacher partner
And everybody can know what I mean by “not that wonderful”
Also the Chinese night
It wasn’t perfect but not really that bad…

Sailing on 3rd day
Seems boring on the boat
Especially when I moves extremely slow
But that only account for a part
We got extremely big wind and rain instead
I know the rain isn’t that big as the afternoon group
But the wind really made the sailing exciting
We also enjoy trying to be Titanic and standing at the front of the boat
According to my memory we got a German night
Can’t remember what the dishes called
But it taste good with heaps of tomato sauce!

Next morning we suppose to watch the sunrise on the boat
But it rise earlier then we thought
Anyway watch it beside the sea was good as well
Can still remember we trying to take the jumping photo but we failed…orz
The koala hunting
Can still the brekkie was awesome
I love not only the icing and also the fresh soft bread!
The koala hunting made us step on lots of poo of koala
But it also made KJ into the relative of koala :P
And also the fishing after
Though everyone almost fall asleep
Though we always lost the bait instead of catching a fish
The Aussie roast of that night was sooooo good seriously!

The expo departed on 5th day
I really love packing because that’s a thing I can do well
At night when everybody were sitting around the fire
I feel like everybody’s together
That’s the thing I haven’s feel for a long time
I love it
And the potato we cooked the pizza we made

Another day of kayaking,
Still it’s really a challenge paddling with a teacher
But I enjoyed the rest of the day
The 90mile beach
Where we really made the jumping photo this time!
The sound of waves
That’s the first time I had seem the milky way by my eye
The first time I can see heaps of shooting stars in night
I thought shooting stars are really unique and they won’t appear that often
Now I know it’s still unique but it can appear really often!
And sleeping under stars was wonderful
Watching those stars and fall asleep

The returning next day
It was wonderful we were not paddling but sailing by the wind
Though it was too windy finally
We were forced to jump off the boat and push it to the jetty by walking in the sea
That night we had a Indian night, which has lots of curies
Unfortunately I can’t eat any spicy thing =[
But it’s still awesome!!!

Cooking is not really hard for me
But cutting onions is
Camping always is my favourite
I can still remember we don’t really like those teachers at first
But not now
When I recall the camp
I miss it
Really much

I don’t care about shower or not
Don’t care about living in the tent
Love to be on the camp but not with the fxxking auntie

After back from the camping
Everything looks that familiar
But seems like I haven’t get used to this world
I know I still miss the camp

My bed is warm but camping is much better
Btw I wasn’t sleep on my pillow that night
I haven’t had a pillow during the camp

athletics

wanna go for athletics

i do lots sports
but only do what i can do well

i do sports
but actually i can't do any well

the best one is running

i wanna go for athletics in school
but don't know anyone is going

afraid i think
afraid to fail
i always like that

im now feeling so fuck coz of my auntie and uncle
they are crap

fuck ˊˋ

stupid thought

something wrong recently
just feel like that

someone told me she's gonna back to thai
the reason is she don't like here

i don't really mind
i tell myself like that

but i know it's actually effecting me

feeling some thing's going on the wrong track
nothing is in my mind

u told me don't forget the smile u taught me
i won't
i just dunno how to smile when i am really sad

i know how to smile when seeing u
but not by myself

i know i fell a bit afraid
i am alone
here
or maybe not just a bit

sorry
really

something wrong

there's something...

feeling like going back to taiwan right now
not because i don't like carey
not because i hate this home

there's something wrong
i said
but can't figure why

i really really wanna go home

tomorrow is ur birthdy
i wanna
back to stella
but
can't

still got vis com exam tomorrow
and business studies next week
already failed most of the exams
i know
im making everybody disappointed

basketball this saturday
what should i do
i should go
but have no confident to play

again

why to be alive
it's just useless

something's wrong
but i should be happy
ur birthday's coming

afraid
i'll cry
again

when's last time i cried?
can't remember
maybe long time ago

always

normal?

i am not
normal?

just need a space

everything's going wrong way...

do u know?

"there's sort of sadness behind every smile"

--- but nobody can ever understand





i hates my auntie
be honest
this is not a place called home
instead
it's named jail

i love the school
but i hate to go home
i love Australia
but not this home

i screwed up the science competition this morning
got no more confidence

esl today
the essay
i though i know what can i write
but i still have no idea 'how' can i write it down
damn

my english's crap
that's it





but it's truth
at least to me

"there's sort of sadness behind a smile"

i never know

i never know
the truth


i have give u all my love
but
i never know
wheather u have forsake me or not
i have no idea at all

i hope
im not just escaping

i hope
it's not the truth at all